I'm going to assume it's the summer vibe getting to my head. All throughout the summer months, I completely lose track of myself. I forget all of my obligations, I lose track of the time, I just go into this state of complete relaxation, and everything becomes a blur. My life dramatically transforms from organized and orderly to a big jumbled mess. During the school year, I've got everything written down, scheduled, and organized. I'm always well put together and cheerful. I know absolutely everything there is to be known, from the time to the color of my lipstick, but literally, the second summer rolls around, everything changes. I transform into a totally different girl.
I begin to procrastinate with everything. I no longer have exact time frames to work within. My hair is never styled. I usually wake up at noon. I fall asleep at one o'clock in the morning. I don't work out. I don't work. I usually just read or watch television. I spend loads of time with friends, and not enough with family. I forget about everything in the entire world. I don't wear lipstick. I don't know the date. I'm living so lazily. It's absolutely terrible.
Now I know exactly what you're thinking, who the hell doesn't enjoy summer? Are you freaking insane?, and no, I'm not. I've thought this over so many times it's actually pretty embarrassing, but after considering everything, I detest school. I ABHOR it. It's my least favorite activity in the entire world. Yet, I'm so relieved to be back in school when September rolls around. Why? I like to be busy. I need some form of organized chaos to survive. That's why I love New York City. That's why I love businesses and newspaper offices and commitments of any form. They keep me BUSY, and I'm most happy when I'm BUSY.
During summer, I lose the sense of chaos, and I become this big blob of procrastination. I desperately need some project to latch myself onto, to dedicate myself to. Sometimes, I don't even need work. A day trip with friends will suffice. I just need something, ANYTHING, to keep me occupied.
This has probably been the busiest summer yet for me. I threw myself into multiple projects trying to find ways to prevent myself from becoming a big blob. For example:
- I've hosted parties
- I went to a Maroon 5/Kelly Clarkson concert
- I went to many parties
- I went to the U.S. Virgin Islands
- I went down the shore with my good friend
- I went for bike rides
- I went to New York City
- I've been working on my silver award for Girl Scouts
- I've started building up inventory for a store that I'm going to open
- I've gone to see movies with friends
- I'm learning to play the bagpipes
- I've been fencing nonstop
- I've been working on being a better person